my heart hurts

I cant stand this. I have never been through such heartache in my life. Hardest week at SPU by far has been this one. And I am not going home for what seems like forever - 6 weeks from now-- someone shoot me..please. What's worse is that I still don't know what to do for next year, I just submitted an application to USF and UOP, but I don't know what to do, what if I don't get accepted anywhere? What if I'm stuck. I don't want my relationship with Seth to fall apart because were so far away from eachother, but this heartache is killing the both of us